Archive for July, 2010

I remember the summer before my last year of college. I got this internship where I was paid pretty handsomely for a college kid. For that whole summer, I was never in want for money, I was able to buy myself all these nice clothes, and I was able to pretty much go where I wanted. Believe me, it was great not having any worries about money.

The thing was, I was going through a breakup with a girlfriend and I was totally miserable. The emotional agony of my breakup taught me one thing: that money does not make you happy.

Fast forward another year. I was out of college and landed a nice white collar job at a major company. I was making great money for someone in his first year out of college, and I was the envy of a lot of my friends. At this time, I also was never at a want for money and I took a lot of things for granted because I knew the money was there.

However, I was completely miserable. I was totally unfulfilled with what I was doing and I hated my job. In fact, the money only served to remind me how unfulfilled I was with my job and my life.

Then it happened.

First I was let go of my job. Then I floated around for a year before trying to look for another job. After not being able to find a job in my field, financial struggle and lack set into my life, and I eventually had to close my bank account and live off of borrowed money

Finally, I was forced to take a menial job because I needed some money coming in. That menial job followed another menial job, and another menial job. They were all able to keep me afloat but I was only really living from hand to mouth.

Then I entered into real estate. There my financial situation got better, as I had more money coming in. But it was feast or famine. Also, while I did get some nice deals from time to time, I was always short of that BIG deal that would make things really comfortable for me.

After three years in that industry, where I eventually got to a point where I consistently closed deals, things suddenly changed and I had to leave there too, because I wound up losing twelve deals in a row, and I again became almost destitute, with little money in my name and no money to stay in the business.

Again it was another period of borrowing money and barely keeping my head above water before I decided to start temping, and money started coming in again regularly.

However, I wanted more than this. I wanted wealth. I didn’t want to just get by, and I was tired of these cycles of doing just okay then everything collapsing with me subsequently experiencing extreme lack once again. Yet, whenever I would go for manifesting abundance in my life, I felt as if something were holding me back, but I couldn’t put my finger on it.

One day however, the clouds parted and it finally dawned on me. I noticed that every time I wanted to pursue a bigger goal that would attract more money, this fear would come over me that if I had all the money I wanted, life would be boring, unfulfilling, and depressing.

That was it! Because after my summer before I graduated from college and my subsequent first year out of college where I was making good money yet feeling miserable and depressed, I associated having money with depression, boredom, quiet desperation and lack of fulfillment. Thus, I created struggle in my life because I associated struggle with fulfillment. I also sabotaged my own success and attracted lack in my life because I was afraid that if I had “everything” I’d be depressed and there would be nothing to live for anymore.

I now had to work un deprogramming myself from this mindset and change the nonsensical views where I associated abundance with lack of fulfillment.

This speaks to a larger issue that many people have who despite all their attempts in manifesting abundance in their lives continue to live in lack and financial struggle.

If you’re getting the opposite results of what you say you want in life, then you have to look into your programming about money.

Perhaps as a child you went to a church that said money was evil and being poor was righteous and would get you into Heaven. If this was the case, you may be sabotaging your efforts at manifesting abundance because you have an underlying guilt about money that came from a belief you adopted as a child at your church.

Or maybe your parents used to berate and speak ill about rich people, saying they were all crooks, or evil or whatever the case. Thus, as an adult, though you may be pursuing wealth, you may be simultaneously failing because as a child, you adopted your parents’ beliefs about wealthy people being crooks, and you shirk away from earning any large amount of money because you think you’re not being honest or don’t want to be thought of as a crook.

No matter how much effort we put into ANYTHING, our underlying beliefs and programming will NEVER fail to sabotage anything that is in direct conflict with them.

If you find yourself constantly running up against a wall where you’re not getting any tangible results in your goal of manifesting abundance in your life, if you run into repeated cycles where you’re about to breakthrough then something always seems to happen at the final hour that messes everything up, then I suggest that you take a deeper look as to how you see wealth.

Listen closer to that chatter you have going on in your head when you think about wealth. Look back into your childhood and recall attitudes of your parents, teachers or even peers about wealth and abundance. They may have had a greater effect on you than you could’ve imagined. Attitudes you adopted from them may be the reason for the lack of success you’re having now.

Look into internal programming and beliefs, and reconcile them with what you really want, and watch and see what happens.

If you want more information on how to overcome other problems you’ve been having in manifesting abundance, read the resource box below.